thoughts

Lonely Nights

May 30, 2017



Nights when i feel the loneliest.
I feel like everything moves really slowly.
My heart feels cold but my body warm.
I start to notice things I didn't notice before.
How people are living their lives.
Interconnected but so far apart from mine.

Nights when i feel the loneliest.
When I want to be in the company of someone.
At the same time wanting to be alone.
Alone by myself.
In my own company.

Nights when i feel the loneliest.
When I feel like I'm waiting for someone.
Someone I need to see,
but so far from reach.
Whom I waited for what feels like decades.
Are you real?
Would we ever meet?

Nights when I feel the loneliest.
The darkest moment of day.
Which reminds me about the darkest part of my heart.
A void.
Wanting to be filled.
With things that felt intangible,
So far from reach.




Well, here's something a little dark for a change. But I hope I didn't irk or scare you guys too much.
Sometimes there are nights when thoughts fill you up and you just have to vent it somewhere, no?


Just think of it as a toast, for those nights we spent alone. Mentally, physically, or both.

- Maddy



*the picture i used is not mine, full credits to the owner



cooking

Tarts and Everything Nice

May 28, 2017

Holidays are getting a bit boring these days (aside from binge watching some TV series on netflix, of course). Everyone's doing their own thing at the moment, or just staying in their house for the rest of the day. My full schedule isn't until next month, so I've got loads of time to spend (and loads of time to be very unproductive), but sometimes I just feel that I shouldn't be this unproductive.

Some days we could be craving certain types of food depending on our moods (anyone can relate?), and when I'm bored, I tend to crave sweet things. 

So I decided to be a bit productive today and make some sweet treats. This time it's egg tarts


I've always thought it was a hard thing to make, but i guess I was wrong! It was pretty simple, although I haven't nailed the flaky crust yet. It was soft and sweet with a hint of vanilla in it.

So yeah, I'm just trying to keep myself busy until next month.

What are your ideas to keep yourself productive on a holiday?





- Maddy -

poem

Wrong

May 20, 2017

Wrong



He was everything I never wanted.

At least that was what i believed,

from the stories I heard about him.


I was so sure of myself back then.

But I have never realized how wrong I was,

until the day our eyes met.

thoughts

What Comes First?

May 16, 2017

What Comes First



What comes first?

The chicken, or perhaps, the egg? 

You asked me over breakfast

"My answer is in your plate." 

I said with a smile on my face.

cooking

Comfort Food

May 10, 2017

My latest cooking endeavor involves my all time favorite comfort food, Quiche!


The first time I've ever tasted quiche was a long time ago.
 It was a weekend night, and me and my family were just strolling around the mall. We saw a french bakery was having a massive discount for all of their items from 8 PM onward. It was half past eight, so me and my family stepped in without even hesitating.

poem

A Morning Without You

May 05, 2017

A Morning Without You


Hi. It's me again.
Nothing much has changed. Not like it would, anyways.
I woke up today, just like any other day. The other bedside still felt strange without you, but I think..
I think I'm slowly getting used to it.

The Girl Who Cried Wolf

May 03, 2017

It's that time of the year again, and the Big Bad Wolf is coming to town!



No, it's not that Big Bad Wolf you usually read in fairy-tale books, although it does have a relation to books.

Yep, it's the annual 2017 Big Bad Wolf book sale! Where a selection of books of many genres goes on sale for up to 80%. The sale is held between 21 April until 2 May for a whole 280 hours non-stop in the newly opened convention center, ICE BSD Tangerang.

cooking

An Attempt on Authenticity

May 01, 2017

This post is dedicated to yet again one of my cooking endeavors. I took my hobby for cooking pretty seriously this holiday (to much surprise), so expect much more posts about food and cooking in the near future ;)



Today i decided to cook something more complicated then what i used to cook. Well, if you look at it, it really isn't that complicated, but it does take much more prep time than before. Today i made two dishes actually, an attempt of a more 'authentic' spaghetti carbonara and everyone's favorite chicken cordon bleu!


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